I have so cold inside

I have so cold inside without you
I hope that you would be here
I want forget this missing
I want get from this pain, but still I can't live without it
I ask again and again
What is love
Without answer, still I know
I feel, touch of icy hand
To my heart when you don't be with me
Icy tears on my face, 
icy wind blowing my mind same time,
when my heart burns miss to you
Flames burn me to end,
Still this not first time when I fall down
Why do you want be with me?
Don't you see that how I'm nothing?
I call your name to wind
I scare this loneliness this time to think
My memories, nightmares
Can nobody help me?
There has taken humanity from me
I want far away, always wanted
I never be belong here, to this world
There I'm nothing, still I would want be with you
I can't live without you
Oh my God, when will I get peace?
Why do I live? Why I'm here?

I look to dark sky to stars and I see
I have always seen behind so far  and nobody can understand me 
I have always been other world
Maybe somewhere I can really happy
These were don't be time, not liners
Where all are atoms and spirits
There is people's really home

I have always wanted to leave
But I still have missions there and you
I cry
I can't stop and I don't want, maybe
I can't be happy
I walk in the shadows, 
I'm always been maiden of the moonlight or warrior
I call your name
And I look to stars somewhere

Sometimes I will be so strong
Somewhere I can fly to stars

But now 

I have so cold inside
I have frozen eyes
I have so cold inside

2008